I have noticed lately that I try to overload myself with pagan stuff when I am busy. Its like I feel bad for not spending time with my personal path, so I start becoming really attatched to my pagan podcasts, I start thinking of new ideas for tools or journals I need, think of things to research, and decide on a billion new books to read. Then, when things calm down, I find I have spent ungodly amounts of time listening to podcasts, started about 5 books and haven't gotten more than a few chapters of each book actually read, and started many many todo lists that haven't even been touched. On top of this I will have a portion of a grimoir or something similar printed up, and not know why I even started it because my beliefs don't even mirror the information that I printed out. It is all research I may never use. By that time, I can't even figure out how to pull everything back together. I can't be the only one that does this. My current goal is to get a project going that I don't have to restart every time I do this. I decided to put together on book, or volumes hehe, of research that I will have reguardless of what I am interested in researching at the time. I am hoping dividers will help... but the problem is, I am not around my computer long enough to work on it. I have these great ideas, but no time at the computer to put it all together...so when I figure this delima out I will let you know... anybody have any ideas on this?
Sunday, February 20
By the way, I am trying to add a link to sell things....so if you find random links that don't do anything for a few days, no worries, I will figure it out in time.
Monday, February 14
Anything I could have posted yesterday would have been a rant about people being irresponsible and using the freedom of paganism as an excuse. Today, anything extended would be about the holidays no one understands and such and of course I am only in a bad mood because I am not celebrating it... so happy Valentines to you who celebrate it, hope you and yours get to celebrate in peace.
Wednesday, February 9
Yep, I missed Sunday again.
But, I just got a spark of inspiration! There was a man on the bus, who at first I was trying to ignore. He would not stop talking and I wanted to be content with the podcast I was listening to. After awhile, his attention turned to me, and I had to listen to this man's story. It was partially through this conversation that I realized he was very insightful. It was like he was a character from the movie Waking Life, imparting his life knowledge on anyone who would listen. I see a lot of people on the bus that talk, but this man actually had something interesting to say. Basically, he was reminding me to enjoy life. How often do you get to be reminded by a total stranger out of the blue of what you need most in life? I guess the point is don't judge so much. Someone you think is only a bother, or unstable, could be the person you need to talk to.